Everything’s Illuminated

In case you haven’t heard..

Baby #2 is on their way!

And let me tell you…

It was the hardest decision of my life!

Way harder than deciding to have little Paris..

I cried for days

And I prayed for days

I talked it over with Skyler many MANY times

But I kept feeling like I wouldn’t love Paris the same

And that I wouldn’t give her the same attention..

So one day..

I called my dad..

Who told me exactly what I needed to hear.

He knew I was capable of great things.

And a great love that could grow with out end.

And then…..

It all clicked for me

Growing up Mom and Dad always had more hugs and kisses to give

More “I Love You” ‘s to go around

Even when our family grew

There was always more room in their arms

Always another spot on their bed

Even as their kids grew up

And even though one of them was now married with a child of her own

There was always love there for everyone

And my siblings ended up being some of the best friends I have

Because “When All Your Friends Are Gone Your Family Is Always Gonna Be There”

And I want Paris to have that

Another great love I remembered was

The love of my heavenly father has

He loves all his children

And through all the faces in the crowd

He remembers MINE

And because of his great love for me

I am able to know love and to have such amazing miracles in my life

And when I go to heavenly father when I have moments of doubt he comforts me

I know (like one of my favorite songs says..) “Nothings gonna change my world”

My world will just get bigger

After all…

I will have my strawberry fields forever ;]