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Everything’s Illuminated
In case you haven’t heard..
Baby #2 is on their way!
And let me tell you…
It was the hardest decision of my life!
Way harder than deciding to have little Paris..
I cried for days
And I prayed for days
I talked it over with Skyler many MANY times
But I kept feeling like I wouldn’t love Paris the same
And that I wouldn’t give her the same attention..
So one day..
I called my dad..
Who told me exactly what I needed to hear.
He knew I was capable of great things.
And a great love that could grow with out end.
And then…..
It all clicked for me
Growing up Mom and Dad always had more hugs and kisses to give
More “I Love You” ‘s to go around
Even when our family grew
There was always more room in their arms
Always another spot on their bed
Even as their kids grew up
And even though one of them was now married with a child of her own
There was always love there for everyone
And my siblings ended up being some of the best friends I have
Because “When All Your Friends Are Gone Your Family Is Always Gonna Be There”
And I want Paris to have that
Another great love I remembered was
The love of my heavenly father has
He loves all his children
And through all the faces in the crowd
He remembers MINE
And because of his great love for me
I am able to know love and to have such amazing miracles in my life
And when I go to heavenly father when I have moments of doubt he comforts me
I know (like one of my favorite songs says..) “Nothings gonna change my world”
My world will just get bigger
After all…
I will have my strawberry fields forever ;]