Day 18- Plans/dreams/goals you have.

PLANS-  To have an amazing Halloween with Skyler, Paris, & Lauren. Plan Skyler’s birthday! (yay!!) Pay off stupid  hospital bills. (ugh!) Plan Thanksgiving. What to wear next…

DREAMS-  To one day have OUR dream house.  Travel Europe with my honey. Own a BMW hehe. Lose the baby weight. Watch my girls grow up to become happy women.

GOALS-  To kiss Skyler a million times a day. To tell my girls & Skyler “I Love You” every second I can. To lose all the freaking baby weight!!

Day 17- Someone you would want to switch lives with for one day and why.

Lady Gaga- Who wouldn’t want to trade places with this freak show? I love her sense of fashion and more than anything want to wear her clothes than be her for a day but hey that wouldn’t hurt either. ;]

Skyler Lewis-  This guy works so hard for his three ladies I would love to be him for a day so I could take the weight of providing off of his hands for a while. And give him a well deserved break! I would be the one to go to work and bring home the bacon while he gets to see how hard my job with the girls truly is. I would also like to be in his head for a day…just to see what it is like. :]

Day 16- Something you could live without.

 I could definitely live without expectations. I just want to live my life the way I

want to. I want to fall when I'm supposed to or get lost if I'm supposed to.

How else am I gonna learn? Expectations only make me feel like I'm letting someone

down. And who wants to feel like that?

Day 15- Put your iPod on shuffle & share the first 10 songs that play.

Sorry 30 Day Challenge (Turned into 3 month challenge) I have no idea where my iPod is :[

Day 14- A picture of something you ate and 10 confessions.

1. I freaking love bacon.
2. I can’t wait for MW3 to come out.
3. I think potty training is one of the hardest parts about being a parent.
4. I secretly am just waiting for someone to push my buttons so I can throwdown. (haha srry mom&dad)
5. I have way too many zombie dreams.
6. I like to put my cold feet on Skyler..(he is so warm!)
7. I love having 2 girls. It gives me an exuse to buy all the pink princess hello kitty stuff I want!
8. I like to lay on a heater with a blanket during the cold winter mornings.
9. I love watching V for Vendetta for Skyler’s birthday every year.
10. I never knew how much joy kids would bring into our lives. Its one of those things everyone says but you dont understand until you’re there.

Day 13- Write a letter telling someone something you could never tell them.

Dear Girl in Elementary School,

You were quiet, kept to yourself , and often times sat alone. All the kids were lined up outside the classroom to go in when you showed up. All your hair was gone and it was now really short. Most of us looked and didn’t say anything.  But a few idiot boys did. They were always the loud rowdy ones in class and now they started teasing you. Saying you looked ugly and like a boy. I watched as you tried to hide behind people keeping your face down. But that did not stop them. They kept laughing and teasing, and you began to cry. You cried and cried and they did not stop. I was so furious, but so timid. I was afraid to say anything and have things said to me. I wasn’t strong enough. Years have passed since then and the moments of you crying were burned into me, haunted me really.  I couldn’t take it anymore. I stood up for people since then. But you will always live with me in my heart. Because of you I no longer just sit in the back of the crowd, I stand up and say something. I am no longer afraid of the backlash because I throw it right back into their faces. I was not strong enough then but I am strong enough now. All because of you. I can stand up for you and everyone else too.

x

Day 12- A picture of your room & don’t cheat by cleaning it. Share a secret.

This is our room from a few days ago (I cant really take one right now cause it is 1 AM, dark, and the girls are sleeping) The only thing that has changed is that cute little bed of Paris’… is broken.  She broke it. The little railing you see there is gone. Instead of going on her bed the normal way she likes to be “Climber Paris” and go over the rail…which gave into the abuse and snapped.

Anyways onto my secret.

One that I am currently doing right now….as we speak…..I mean as I am typing.

I secretly love to watch My Hubby sleep. Its so adorable. His cute little face! I just want to kiss it over and over again. Its a time for me to reset, often times life is so crazy and frustrating my eyes get frosted over with the stresses of life. And instead of seeing the amazing man (and handsome!) I married I sometimes see the “leaver of wet towels on the floor” or the “leaves his socks and clothes in a trail while getting ready for work” man. The times I watch him sleep I remember our happy memories and the times we just sit and laugh with each other. There really is no one in the world like MY Skyler. And I am lucky to have snatched him up before some other girl could. I am one lucky girl. And I need to always remember that.

x

Day 11- A picture of something you dislike.

(as you can tell I’m terrible at keeping up with this)

The thing I dislike the most…HATE even, is racism. Of any kind. Discrimination to me is disgusting. I dont understand why people must look down on one another because they look different/believe different/live different. Why can’t we look at peoples hearts and intentions? Why can’t we see that that person is someone else’s brother/sister/mother/father/best friend? That they are loved. We are all loved.
I think everyone should like everyone.